Senior year!

  UN is coming to town in less than 2 weeks!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
And many thing distract me from studying such as:
1. Trip to bali with SAPTADAKARA (my batch's name in SHS)
2. Test at Prasetiya Mulya (My last chance for business)
3. SNMPTN and PPKB results
4. School stuffs
And everything are related to money and my parents which make me FREAKIN OUT RIGHT NOW!!!

I want to cry like I used to everytime I got stressed out, but right now I can't.
I just want everything going slowly as it could. Better, everything going according to my plans.

In this moment of time, I'm so grateful that many people still encouraging me.
At least I know that they do care, not just two-faces-people who I think they're better just go rotten in hell.

But still, I can't make them to understand my situation completely.
My boyfie is so busy right now in the middle of midterm test and my friends as busy as myself thinking about college and stuffs.

I think I have to pray a lot just like Mr. Max say before. Maybe that's the reason I still feel uncomfortable and can't think clearly about this situation.


And I already decide what to do for next week.
Go to TA to play ice skating and then play pokemon in laptop.
Yeay, me !






there are many words that being left unsaid, 
Blue

Mood-breaker

Hi
I write this from my pad and of course, this agent located at one and only E1-01 lovely dorm.
Many things ruin my mood today, such as final exam result esp mandarin, him, the unimportant presentation and more.
It's like the world trying to against me.
Seriously, can I have a peaceful last week of school? Without anything or anyone disturb me or making this stupid brain of mine wandering around, thinking all negative things that could happen in a day.

I mean
COME ON!!! I NEED TO RELAXED MY MIND!
FROM ANY JERK PEOPLES WHO THINKS THAT EVERYTHING THEY HAVE DONE ARE RIGHT.

And for you(who I don't think will open my blog)
Please, think! I won't mad at you if you want to hangout with your friends.
But please, be consider to tell me first than hanging me around with unreplied text.
Unless you won't complain if I 'm leaving you without any news, kay?;)

Hi hi hi :D

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Long time no post some shit in here
Oh well, let just say that I wrote one post in January and now it's December already.
Phew, time sure flies fast.

           I've been busy troughout this year, not just about the school stuffs but with lovelife, or so I think.
2 days ago I just celebrated my 21st monthsarry with him, although I can barely contact him because he got some paper to study with. :<
          But at least we got no fights in that date so it makes me a little happy inside. 21 months, impressive huh ? ;)

          Almost forgot, I'm in senior year now. Which means I have to deal with bunch of university stuffs. And all I was thinking is WHAT THE F....
I can't even take care of myself and now I'll have to become some mature kid in university. Oh my...
         And the thing is, I don't even know what major should I take....Everyone keep asking and telling me to choose the major that I like but I have no idea-__-
 

It's definitely me alright-_-

        One thing that I've been thinking was I don't really want to go to any university in here. I want to go abroad where I can have some part time job that worth it, have many friends from across the nation, do many club activities which I don't know if I can get any in here.
       Anyway Indonesian peoples have a primitive idea about people who study abroad. Saying that they can't get into National University so they take one abroad. Like, come on.....
And they are talking about some pride to enter the university like UI, UGM, ITB which are top universities of our country where sometime some private university are much better than the national one in some majors.
       I really want to said and yell to them :

WAKE UP PEOPLE! 

IT'S 21ST CENTURY ALREADY! 

COULD YOU TAKE YOUR-SO-CALLED-PRIDE AND THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX!

(Hh.....hh.....I think I need some water, wait a second. Gluk gluk gluk, ah......that's better)

         Sorry to say, but this is one of many reason why I think this country can't become a developed country. Who said that those who study abroad can't do anything for their own country?
         Too much to say, I got a little carried away-.-
Well whatever they say, we just have to prove it and see the result. Too much hatred in welcoming post it's not good right ?
          Oh yeah, I kinda give interest in Process Food and Techology in Den Haag University but my boyfie said it's too far away. He let me to choose just between Singapore or Indonesia, or if I still want to study abroad we have to split up.......:(

There some stuffs that going on my mind lately, I think I'll write some more in this blog because holiday is coming!!! :D

P.S : I hope I can bring my laptop and modem so I can open my blog in dorm.

there are many words that being left unsaid,  

Blue